My Diary - ( Cancer Awareness)
12/4/2006
Dear GOD
My name is Grace and I'm 16, I know you know me but I hope you get to know me more via my writings to you. I clocked 16 yesterday and was diagnosed with cancer of the liver at the hospital yesterday ( Smiles). Only God knows why I must face this life challenge but I pray to get healed and be strong for my family, friends and relatives. I keep wondering why and how I got myself into this, I'm only 16 and I already have a strong battle to fight? You know better.
*Pause* Dear God, what exactly is my offence? I hear you say nothing and getting to know this is my fate. I wish to go back to school, be strong to help mum out with her petty trade business, I dream always to be a great person in the future but will I ever get to see the future? *Tears drop, wipes tears*....
1) I wasn't born with a silver spoon
2) I have no father again but just 1 hardworking mother who's also suffering from sickle cell disease.
And now I have to fight the battle of cancer? (Smiles).
For the 1st time in my life, I saw sadness on my mother's face yesterday at the hospital, I felt her pain of being a mother to a young determined child diagnosed with cancer of the liver ( 1st stage).
What if I die? What if I survive? What if? What if not? (Tears drop). Will I ever keep this as a secret to my classmates? Friends? Will they love me more or hate me more? GOD, help me, I know you can.... Help me lord.
*Closes book*
12/11/2006
Dear God,
Are you there? Can you give me some minutes to talk to you? I'm too weak to write for long but please give me some minutes. I'm writing this on my bed, my bed in the hospital. It has finally happened and ain't scared to give up now God. I have been in the hospital for 3months now and I haven't enjoyed one single day in this place. All I see is tears, confused and sad faces, I have put more sadness in my mother's life than the happiness I have always wanted to put. Is this my fault? Who should be blamed? God? Life? Cancer? Me? My sins? I need answers from you.... *Groans* Can you feel the sharp pain I just felt? Lord, heal me, I'm in pains (Tears)....
I see different faces of cancer patients everyday, the young and the old. If you are truly God, why watch these people suffer like this? I believe you have a reason but why keep it unknown to everyone? I hope you take me soon so I could ask you many questions but lord, heal me fast if that's the future plan. I'm in pains! *Tears*
I have never for once thought of how many people feel pains everyday till I got to this place, I wish you could give the healthy ones so many reasons to give thanks for being healthy.
I have to go now, I hope you get this letter... Surgery period getting closer.
*closes book*
12/7/2007
3rd stage, I have no hair again. (smiles) I have seen a new me, a thin, pale, weak Grace. Everything seems new to me lord. I have given up finally, my dreams are shattered already and I have accepted my fate.
God, I know you see my heart and know how much I want to be strong for my people but I'm weak and in pains, take me oh lord. The pains are getting much. I'm too young for this but before you finally take me, I need you to
1) Be with my family
2) heal the sick ones and relief the pains in them
3) teach people to be grateful because people in the hospital don't ever want this place as home but should I say we are the unlucky ones?
4) Watch over my mother and keep my siblings so they can make her proud and give her the happiness I never gave her.
Cancer is a bad sickness and many people are battling with this illness everyday. I wish I could get well for a day and go out there to create more awareness but I see the other side already, I want to feel pains nomore, I want to rest.
Dear mother, siblings, I'm going to miss you all and forever be with you. End time!
*Closes book*
Grace died after some days, she was strong for her people but it was too late for her to change things. Cancer is a bad thing but many are suffering from different types, they don't want it but they have to fight till the end. I pray for ultimate healing for all cancer patients.
Create more awareness and show them love.
Written by Diji Aderogba
@Realbabymouth
